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    ???「???我???真???的???很???替???云???漪???开???心???，???也???替???她???担???忧???。???」???紫???曦???面???带???微???笑???，???眼???里???却???带???着???淡???淡???忧???虑???，???「???开???心???的???是???，???她???能???遇???到???这???麽???ai???她???肯???为???她???牺???牲???一???切???，???连???皇???位???都???不???要???的???啓???桓???哥???。???担???忧???的???是???，???将???来???他???们???所???要???面???对???的???流???言???蜚???语???，???希???望???他???们???能???够???坚???定???的???度???过???那???未???知???的???责???难???日???子???。???」

    ???「???会???的???，???他???们???一???定???能???坚???强???面???对???的???，???这???也???是???他???们???自???己???的???选???择???，???你???就???别???替???他???们???担???心???了???。???」???依???拉???看???着???紫???曦???，???「???我???想???，???你???现???在???应???该???为???你???自???己???做???打???算???才???是???。???」

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    ???她???的???幸???福???？

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    ???她???现???在???的???心???是???混???乱???而???迷???惘???的???，???她???忘???不???了???啓???枢???哥???，???但???在???她???心???里???的???另???一???个???角???落???，???又???似???乎???为???另???一???个???男???孩???动???心???，???而???这???男???孩???不???是???别???人???，???正???是???苍???尧???。

    ???「???我???不???知???道???，???我???还???不???确???定???自???己???是???真???的???对???他???有???感???觉???，???还???是???只???是???把???他???当???成???啓???枢???哥???，???毕???竟???苍???尧???是???苍???尧???，???我???不???能???把???他???当???做???啓???枢???哥???的???影???子???，???这???样???对???他???是???不???公???平???的???。???」